Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in lissygrl's LiveJournal:

Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
11:35 pm	66ccff I just wanted to see if this did what i was hoping it would do (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 21st, 2004
3:56 pm	Home I'm home. yesterday consisted of 390 cals, and even tho i smoked w/ my friends i didnt give into the munchies altho i tried to talk myself into it...haha. then i got home and went right to bed. I keep thinking of binging on lindt chocolate, pizza, cereal, cookies, bagles, cheesecake and the ice cream that we have. I have a binge all planned out..yup thats a ton of food, but so far, i've managed to resist it. Soon homemade xmas cookies and rice crispy treats will be added to the mix. On the upside, there is no family xmas party this year so thats a huge trigger that i dont have to endure. ok, well now im off good luck girl ~Lissy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, December 17th, 2004
12:49 pm	hey girls! So its been a bit since i've written...finals week it hectic...i have one more 15-30 page paper left to write. I am so stressing out cause i literally have no money. And the kitten that we took in has worms so it was $31 to get that taken care of (so nasty) and today he has a vet appointment which will be $65. Ugh! So after all this I will have $2.00 with which to purchase gas to drive home for the holidays...at least i dont buy alot of food, haha. I was originally gonna stay at school until Wednesday because thats when my paper is due, but I am gonna try to make it home by Sunday morning, especially if my aunt will let me work for her like she did last winter. If thats the case then ill work as much as I can the next 2 weeks before I have come back for winter classes...ugh! I NEED A JOB!!! especially if i wanna have spending money and tanning money for spring break... Eating has been good, only have made it to the gym once because Ive been so busy. When i'm home im not gonna pay all that money to get week memberships at the gym, im just gonna run. I think this will be just as effective as my marathon cardio sessions cause i never run! And the one time I did make a habit of it, i lost a shitload of weight. Then back here for winter classes...hopefully I can go home and work about 25 hours over the weekends for my aunt cause i cant afford books...serioulsy this is stressing me out...and i got a 15/20 on one of my final papers! grr...on the upside whenever im stressing over money or my grades i just think, im not eating, fuck this...it like makes me not want to eat even more..and im not complaining! I'm trying so so hard not to weigh myself until Sunday...I really wanna only weigh once a week. I weighed monday and i was at 150...woo hoo gained 35lbs!! fuck that. fuck mia. I hate binging alot, because u gain weight! and its not even worth it for all the effot it takes to purge. Restricting is where I feel more comfortable. Altho now, even if i eat a bit,i have a huge urge to throw up. Ok, im ranting. I have stuff to do, but i seriously just wanna stay in my bed and be all depressed and unhappy. I cant wait till i get really skinny...i mean, i was 115 last year and people said i got so skinny but i think i look the same as i do now..obviously i have an image issue but still. I want people to think that im so skinny i must be anorexic..somehow im proud of that. and while i would never outwardly tell people, I want them to notice. is that weird? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 26th, 2004
6:45 pm	RED SOX....HELL YEA!!! ok, so im from Boston....if you could tell by the title of this post. tonight is game 3 of the world series...man johnny damon is wicked hot... anyways, luckily im in the midst of a binge because tonight we're goin to a bar for the game, and so there will be eating and drinking...even tho i feel sick already. Thats the only good thing about a binge...when u dont have to miss out on eating somewhere social. But as of tomorrow, its back to the fasts...i need it, i feel so gross its so bad. Im thinkin I can get to 105 by january...and 95 definately by spring break,i kno i can do it alot sooner but i figure i might as well way over estimate the time it will take because lord knows if i dont, and i dont make the goals i set for myself in the time alloted...well, we all know that means failure, which usually leads to another binge.. so now im goin to shower and get ready (ugh...the idea of putting clothes on kills me right now) and im gonna watch the SOX KICK SOME CARDINAL ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!! (sorry if anyone here is from St. Louis, but come on we havent one a friggen world series since 1918!) (2 Comments |Comment on this)